Over the last week or so I have been laying down with Jace during his nap. He is a good napper and usually naps alone and has no problems going to sleep. Recently I started laying him in my bed and snuggling with him till he falls asleep. I think it started as me laying with him cause I’m in the achy tired stage of this pregnancy but now it is because I really just want to snuggle with him for a little longer.
His life is about to go through a big change when his little sister arrives. He is becoming more independent everyday and I’ve been noticing that I’m having to do less and less for him as he learns to do it on his own. It makes me both proud and a little sad. As a mom you never know when the last time they are going to need your help is. Is this going to be the last time he needs help getting on the potty? The last time I make sure his shoes are on the right feet? The last time I put soap on his hands because his little figures are still just a little too short to reach it.
I must admit sometimes I get annoyed with the little tasks that I have to help him with everyday. Do you really have to pee again? I just sat down. Mommy is tired can’t we just rinse your hands with water this time? But at the same time I don’t want to miss the little things. The last time he needs my help. He already rarely needs me to hold him. Did I already rock him to sleep for the last time? If so I don’t remember it. I was probably too tired and frustrated that he was even up to begin with. How much longer will he let me hold him till he falls asleep at night? Will I notice when the top of his head no longer has his baby smell? I’m sure the teenage boy smell will replace it eventually. Will I remember the last time he runs at me with big eyes and arms reaching out to me after he hears thunder?
My baby will soon not be “the baby” anymore but that’s ok. Because he will always be MY baby. Even when he is old and grey my baby you’ll be.
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